she's god damn
unreasonable.
she never bothered listening to us children and jumped to conclusions.she'd rather believed others then her own children.goes to show how much our words weigh.
i admit i might have been overboard in some ways but for instance,
who doesnt have mood swings?
not everyone can control their changing moods.
if i could it would have been the greatest enlightenment to me.
she cant do it herself.so why put me down and say she's unhappy with me flaring up at everyone when my mood's oh so wrong?she gets pretty damn irritated with everyone and throws tantrums too when's she's having mood swings too.
so much for always wanted us to be level-headed.
it's not fair because she herself cant do it too.
want us to be self-disciplined.
where's the freedom that comes after that request?
i swear it'll never come.
what does she expect from me?
i'm pretty god damn disciplined compared to so many others.
even when the others come from problematic families too.
sorry e'an for always telling you that God's fair.
i'm starting to really doubt it.
or have i actually ever believed it?
or maybe it's just that i made myself think i did.
isnt God suppose to make every being happy?
isnt He suppose to make the world a lovely place?
what's this that i see and go through then?