i was overly emotional and over-reacting.

i was having moodswings.

why do certain things just have to come to me all at one go?
like i always say, i'm only seventeen. i cant take it.
maybe i'm just running away from all that's happening but i've every reason to do so isnt it?

who wants to run back to endless hurt, endless waiting for commitments, endless crying and insecurity?
i've had my fair share of all.
*you know the soft spot will always be there and i admit that i'm truly very vulnerable to your display of affection, so please do me a favour, do not tempt me to fall for *you again.
at least for now till we both feel we truly need each other in our lives in future.

when will *they ever come to a mutual decision to salvage the situation?
to stay put or leave the game. i dont care.
i'm sick of having to think of how to handle it.

i hate running. i say i'm left with no choice. is it true? or am i just running away from them too?

mosie and dq*
my apologies for disturbing you two last night. esp trish. hope i didnt spoil any of the 'moments'. i know you guys are all tired of listening to my neverending problems but i'm really glad that you'll always listen patiently to all my endless complaints and nonsense. thanks darlings. iloveyouallforlovingme*

daniel*
i'm sorry bout last night. thanks for accompanying me. hope you understand why i was acting like that last night. chocolates or sweets? any as long as you'll not be annoyed anymore. smile?