Thursday, June 30, 2005
Once bitten, twice shy.Why didn't I learn from
it?
I've been a human wreck for days.
Wish I could just hide in a corner where no one can find me.
Dear
*Crystle, your birthday gift's still on my table. I'm so sorry. Although it's belated, will you still meet up with this awful girlfriend of yours to see what she has for you?
Darling, I meant it when I said I respect you for your strength. And I'm really not as strong as you are. I need your kind of strength.
When *
you said, "... it's been tough on you and I really admire you for... ", I cried. Not because I was upset. But because you're the first person ever to understand. I'm very thankful. Honestly. (Shan't mention your name. You know who you are.)
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said? Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be (*)You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
(*)Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
I told you everything, opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all that's left of me is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside Cause I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
Swallow me, then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside anymore
I'd rather you change, for the better or worse, than treat me the way you've been all along.
Sigh, I told a white lie today.
she blogged at 14:50;
